Love and hugs,
Mom


Well, after a tiring vacation in Colorado, where everyone had a ball but me, we get home, and the next day I get a phone call. My grandmother is dying, it's only a matter of time. She had lapsed into a coma, and her kidnies had failed. There was no coming back.
After a grouling week of waiting, worrying and wondering, Friday morning came along, my mother and I had just talked earlier in the day about if we were coming to Alabama for the funeral. I told her yes, of course I would be there. The woman was like a mother to me. I grew up living right behind her. Spent countless summers and afernoons at her house, how could I not go to my own grandmother's funeral?
Around 11:30 Friday morning, I got the call. She passed away. I didn't know how to feel, or what to do. I went and got the kids from school and started packing. Not knowing if Tim would be able to come or not, I practically begged him, even though I didn't have to. He wanted to be there for us, and I knew I couldn't get through it without him.
I don't know what was harder, seeing a shell of a woman that I once knew lying in the coffin, or the fact that the shell of the woman looked nothing like the woman I remembered. Visitation was horrible, but the funeral was much worse. I guess it really sank in when the first song played at the funeral was one I asked my mother to have played, "Go Rest High on that Mountain," usually preformed by Vince Gill. Then to see them shut the coffin....destroyed me. It was over then, she was gone. My beautiful grandmother was gone. And she was beautiful all the way to her soul.
If I hadn't had Tim and Daph both with me at those very moments, I would have died from a broken heart right then. No matter what any of the children or grandchildren might have or would have said, I was like a daughter to her, nothing would even be arranged until it was sure I would be there. I had a say in the flowers, the music, and other small things. The little things that were left to do anyway.
Then as a final blow to my heart, my favorite song was the last to be sung. "Amazing Grace." I sat, crying for the first real time, throughout the entire funeral. I had already been so stressed out from everything before that, and now, I've lost the woman who meant almost as much to me as my own mother. I don't know who it was, but someone right behind me at the funeral passed me up a Kleenex. God bless that person! Before it was all over with I could have used four!
We're home now, hopefully things will start to get back to normal and I can put that part behind me. I want to only remember the good things. The smiles, the laughter and the love. The eternal love she gave me, and I still have for her.
Thank you to those of you who already knew and remembered our family in your prayers, and thank you for all of your loving support. Knowing I have friends like all of you makes me happy.

My love to all,
Mom


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got me!!!! Oh well...here it goes!!

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Mom


1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged



1) I am a blonde....legally and naturally!! LOL!

2) I love to hang out with my daughter and all her friends!! (especially )

3) I am 33 years old, and my real name is Teresa.

4)I have only 2 children of my own and about 20 or more that I have adopted over the years!!

5) I am a huge fan of art of almost any kind....

6) I am a sex addict....they don't have meetings to cure you from that!!

7) I love joking around with just about anyone, after I've known you for a while....don't wanna offend anyone!!

8) I am a recovering alchoholic.....they do have meetings for that, but I don't go to the pitty parties!! I made a deal with my boyfriend Tim, of almost 4 years now, that I wouldn't drink if he wouldn't. And we've not had a drink since Aug. 28, 2005. And God do I need one sometimes!!!!!

Okay....I tag.....

and...

Sorry ya'll....but ya know I love you all!!!!

Love to all!!!
Mom


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Mom

I stole this from I thought it was pretty cool!

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Mom


1. Are you ready for 50 questions?
Sure!

2. Which state/country do you live in?
United States of America, Missouri

3. What is your favorite thing you got for Christmas?
My Journey diamond necklace and matching earings from my wonderful man!!

4. What was the last thing you did in 2007?
Kissed Tim....it was the new year!!!!

5. How tall are you?
...um...5ft. 5 inches

6. Are you new on dA? How long have you been a member?
not sure...look at the top of the page!!

7. Are you male or female?
last time I checked I was definately female!!!

8. Which program do you use to chat?
I don't do chat...too much trouble comes from those things!

9. What was the first thing you did this morning?
woke up...then got dressed really quick, got in the truck and too kids to various schools!

10. Do you own a website or forum?
nope...used to, but can't go into that one!!

11. Is the computer you're using your own computer?
well yeah!

12. What is your favorite type of food?
Chinese....beef with snow peas, egg rolls, seasame chicken....the list goes on!!!

13. How many brothers and sisters do you have?
only one brother, wait, or is he my sister

14. Do you have an account on myspace?
nope

15. What is your favorite video game or anime character?
Lady Tsunade....

16. What is your favorite color?
Black

17. Everyone loves candy, right?
I don't know I'm not everyone!!

18. Have you ever gotten a gift art from a friend or someone?
well yeah

19. Do you have the Wii?
no...I don't like them small!!!!

20. (IF YES TO QUESTION 19.) What Wii games do you have?
N/A


21. If you could have one wish, what would it be?
I can't really say cause I do have one wish and I don't wanna jinx it!!

22. How long do you sleep?
not nearly enough!

23. What is your favorite part of day?
When I get to sleep!

24. What kind of creature/person is your character?
I don't have one!


25. What is the first letter of your name?
T

26. Do you cuss/swear/curse?
I make a sailor blush with shame!!

27. Are you happy, excited, angry, or sad at the moment?
Kindof pissed right now!

28. What is your favorite video game?
I don't have one

29. Do you think Nintendo is an amazing company?
not really

30. What is your favorite video game company?
Don't have one!

31. Do you like doing quizzes?
Oh yes!!!!!

32. Do you have a lot of good friends?
Sure I do....You're reading this right??

33. What color eyes do you have?
I have mood eyes. they change colors! But they are mostly blue.

34. What is your favorite Pokémon?
don't know, I have a few of them.

35. Have you ever seen a house on fire?
yes and it's horrible!

36. What is your favorite book?
um...crap I don't know!

37. Have you ever read a 100 paged book?
that and more...

38. Are you a Christian?
I believe in God, I do not believe in organized religion!

39. Who do you like better: Mario or Sonic the hedgehog?
Sonic!!!!! And Tales is awesome too!!

40. Do you like to do smilies?
of course ^^

41. Do you like to be funny?
I don't really have a choice on that one!

42. What time is it right now in your time zone?
10:53 pm

43. Do you like to draw with a pencil or computer mouse?
pencil

44. What kind of desktop do you use?
Ummm....Vista

45. Have you ever beaten a video game? If yes, what game?
too many to name....

46. Do you have an action replay for some system/game?
no

47. What is your favorite holiday?
My birthday! It's all about me Baby!!!!!

48. What is your favorite letter?
um...that's stupid!

49. What is your favorite number?
13 it's my lucky number!!

50. Now tag 3 of your friends!
Sorry guys!!! Love ya though!

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Love to all my friends!!!
Mom

I stole this from !! She's awesome! I don't know how to post a link, so you can go to her journal and get the link. And amazingly, it's mostly all true! Love and hugs to all my friends!!!

Mom


There are 17 letters in your name.
Those 17 letters total to 77
There are 8 vowels and 9 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:Spanish Female Variant of Theresa. Name of two popular saints 'Teresa of Avila' and 'Therese of Lisieux'.
Italian Female Harvester.
Greek Female Reap; from Therasia.


Your number is: 5

The characteristics of #5 are: Expansiveness, visionary, adventure, the constructive use of freedom.

The expression or destiny for #5:
The number 5 Expression endows with the wonderful characteristic of multi-talents and versatility. You can do so many things well. The tone of the number 5 is constructive freedom, and in your drive to attain this freedom, you will likely be the master of adaptability and change. You are good at presenting ideas and knowing how to approach people to get what you want. Naturally, this gives you an edge in any sort of selling game and spells easy success when it comes to working with people in most jobs. Your popularity may lead you toward some form of entertainment or amusement. Whatever you do, you are clever, analytical, and a very quick thinker.

If there is too much of the 5 energy in your makeup, you may express some the negative attitudes of the number. Your restless and impatient attitude may keep you from staying with any project for too long. Sometimes you can be rather erratic and scatter yourself and your energies. You have a hard time keeping regular office hours and maintaining any sort of a routine. You tend to react strongly if you sense that your freedom of speech or action is being impaired or restricted in any way. As clever as you are, you may have a tendency to make the same mistakes over and over again because much of your response is glib reaction rather that thoughtful application. You are in a continuous state of flux brought by constantly changing interests.

Your Soul Urge number is: 7

A Soul Urge number of 7 means:
With a number 7 Soul Urge you are very fond of reading, and retreating to periods of being alone and away from the disruptions of the outer world. You like to dream and develop you idealistic understandings, to study and analyze, to gain knowledge and wisdom. You may be too laid back and withdrawn to really succeed in the business world, and you will be much more comfortable in circumstances that are tolerant of your reserve, your analytical approach, and your desire to use your mind rather than your physical being.

You are very timid around people that you don't know very well, so much so at times that casual conversation and social situations can be strained. You tend to repress your emotions to the extend that some people have a good bit of difficult understanding you. You tend to be very selective with friends and you don't easily adapt to new environments or to new people very quickly.

The negative traits of the 7 include becoming too much the introvert and isolated from others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.

Okay, so one of my best friends is extremely depressed and I can't help her and it makes me very upset. I am scared for her and don't know what to do. She won't let me help, she won't even talk to me right now, and I am really worried....

It upsets me so much, I've been crying for over 20 minutes now, since I got the last message from her. I guess I''m just broken hearted right now...

Oh well, if she's reading this, and she knows who I am talking about...I love you, and I wish you wouldn't shut me out like this. I'm sorry you're depressed. I've been there myself several times, so I know how you feel...and you're right things really never do seem to change. But I have learned that we can tweek them up a little to make it a little better. Anyway, you know where I am if you need me..... I don't know what else to say, but, I love you.....and miss you greatly!!!

Love and hugs...
Mom